And, not in a good way. Sometime, I wake up with a desire to call friends, exercise, read a book….and then I find myself just wanting to lay back down and go to sleep.
Sometime, I feel a little better, and decide to take a walk, or go to the grocery store for healthier food…and find myself starring into space.
Sometime, I see a new product or idea on the web, and feel a spark of hope. God only knows how many products I’ve tried to feel better…but I generally don’t feel much better.
So, when I get real, the main problem is that I just don’t have the energy to stick to a plan. I just have to try one hour, one day at a time. And I have to forgive myself. I’m not failing, I’m winning because I still have at least one success every day, sometimes more.
One thing I know for sure – we moldies mean well. Sometimes, we just can’t follow through. And therein lies the problem – our emotions are like a bouncing ball between hope, fear, depression and small successes along the way.
Still, our lives count. Our thoughts as well as actions matter – not only to us but to those who care about us.
Just saying – never give up.
Name withheld by request.